Thanatophobia... Slowly

My biggest fear isn't snakes or spiders or the dark. It's the fear of dying... Slowly. I'm not afraid of death in and of itself. I believe there is a God and a heaven, and I hope to live a life good enough to pass the pearly gates. However, the process of dying is what scares me.

I don't want to die lying in bed for days waiting to pass as my body eats itself and I can't do anything about it. This summer I watched both my and my friend's grandmothers die that way. I would much rather die quickly; shooting, car crash, I don't know. Whatever it is, I want it to be over and done with fast.

Don't get me wrong though, I love my life and I certainly don't want it to end in the near future. But once I get to my mid 80's or so, I don't want to die of cancer or that sort of thing. I would never ever ever take my own life or ask someone else to do it for me, but I really don't want to die a slow and painful death.