Territory wars

Failure
my sisters
none
Washing Machines
Spazatron years
Rock the World
tapping my pencil
jumping from high places (top of swings, Justins deck, etc)
Journey Album
wallowing in the past

Im gonna choose the topic of problems to write about. Its been nearly 6 years since the start of middle school, and from that time on, i cant stop but think about all the stupid mistakes ive made, and more importantly, what kind of person i became because of them. theres a Linkin Park song that has this verse: "If I could change I would take back the pain I would Retrace every wrong move that I made I would." and thats what i do daily. theres some point in the day, everyday, when i think about something i did wrong. anyone who went to winburn remembers the Spazatron movies i made. sure, you think theyre funny, but i hate them with a burning passion. absolutely hate them. i think i set myself on a self destructive course in life, and then the moment i tried to change that and build myself back up, half the people i knew pressured me to stay the way i was. my screwups and emotional ordeals were a source of amusement for everyone. thats what i remember now. thats who everyone thought i was. this is why i try to not to talk as much in class. this is the reason i try not to act out in what i believe. im not going to fight anything because i know if i do then those old emotions will swell back up. i woder what would have happened if i wasnt Spazatron. would i just be another average person? would i be someone that wasnt afraid of what he said? these are the burning questions that haunt me each day.